Archive for the ‘Spirituality’ Category

34. To Be Who You Are

February 25, 2018

The summer I was ten years old was an awakening of child-size revelations.  That was when I first started to look at the world around me, and to notice things beyond the end of my own nose.

The warm lazy days flowed along like an easy river and carried me with them, and there was plenty of time. Sometimes when I was by myself I climbed up in the little pear tree, and I wondered about things, like life and God. I’d be wondering what God was, but then I’d notice a perfect green pear I could pick, so I did, and I ate the pear and it was warm from the sun and crunchy and sour and sweet at the same time, and the juice ran down my chin and I forgot all about God. I just knew that he was around and always watching out for me like Granny did, and keeping me safe. Even if I woke up in the middle of the night in the dark, he would be there and I could go back to sleep.

Summer evenings when I went to bed it wasn’t quite dark yet. I looked out my window at the lilac-tinted sky above the roofs, and I understood that God was a Presence, so big that it filled the whole infinite twilight sky, and yet it still had time to notice me falling asleep. God was something strong, that saw me and knew me and loved me and thought I was okay.

I always tried to be good, and that meant sometimes having to do what I didn’t want to, or act like somebody different than I really was. And I came to wish with all my young heart that I could be the same person on the outside as I was on the inside, just be me, the way God saw me, and that be okay with everybody. But I didn’t dare.

I never imagined that 50 years later I would still be trying to do that. The simplest truth at bottom of all truths is that we all want to be who we really are. But as children and as adults, it’s hard to discover what that is, because most of our world demands us to be everything else but that. And we’ve each been taught a system of  well-intentioned lies, (each of us a slightly different set, like You’re not good enough unless… You don’t deserve that… You can’t do that because… You shouldn’t want that because…) and these rules were meant to protect us from the problems and suffering our parents or guardians had experienced in their lives.

But their lives are not our lives. Without realizing it, we grew up and limited our own lives, for years or even for a lifetime, by unknowingly believing and embodying those rules, some of which were never true in the first place.

What was true for them may not be true for us, and so the mind/soul work for each of us must be the unlearning of our untruths and the relearning of what is true for us now, and actually, always was. When we know the truth, it really can make us free. If we don’t unlearn and relearn, we don’t grow into what we are meant to be, we hide our light, and we cannot live an authentic life, which is the one thing every living soul sincerely longs for.

No matter what anybody else told you then, or tells you now, you do have the right to be who you honestly are, and that real-you is actually much more wonderful than you know.

33. FYI, I Love You

February 11, 2018

One of a few meaningful regrets in my life is that I spent so many years not saying I love you to people I loved. Some of them have left this world, and I no longer have the opportunity to tell them face-to-face. I can only tell them in my evening meditations/ prayers.

This is a habit that so many of us have – holding back and not expressing the good things that we feel for each other. There are many different reasons – mine were that I was shy, embarrassed, and my family had not been physically affectionate when I was young. For many of us, it just seems easier, or safer perhaps, but it has a cost. Not saying I love you, not saying I’m proud of you, not saying I respect you for who you are. When the moment passes, we may never get that opportunity again, and we will never know how much it might have meant.

Now, I just tell people. Just like that, no big deal. What a radical idea! Not the romantic I-love-you, but just the friendship I-love-you, the Mom, Dad, sister, brother I-love-you. Especially I think we ought to tell people who probably know we do, or ought to know. Do they know for sure? It might actually matter to them more than we knew.

I often give hugs spontaneously to friends, coworkers, patients in my E.R. Nobody seems to mind, and sometimes, it turns out to be a gift they needed, but couldn’t ask.

I smile at strangers that pass me on the sidewalk. (A stranger’s smile saved my life once.) Smiles cost nothing at all – you can give away zillions of them. Try it. You’ll never regret a single one.

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32. Courage and Faith

January 10, 2018

There is a basic universal law that is always invisibly working in our lives, whether we know it or not, even when we are totally unaware:

“What we believe is what we receive.”

This is the winner’s edge, and the loser’s self-defeating curse.
We can only be that which we dare to be.

In every aspect of life on earth, courage is the difference-maker. That, and the commitment to hold onto a little bit of faith, sets every impossible dream into forward-motion.

“Nothing is impossible, if you have faith.”

Jesus said that, and he was telling the truth. That’s exactly what he and other messengers came for–– to give us the gifts of the power of truth. Some faith is required, and the greater the faith/belief, the stronger the outcome. But faith is not easy. It requires courage.

If your heart and soul truly desire something “impossible,” don’t play the odds. Go for it, all out. Believe anyway. Because if you believe you can, all bets are off, and the power of the universe gets behind that.

If you dare to Believe you can do it – you will.

30. The Path: Life After Life

December 18, 2017

When my dearest, nearly-lifelong best friend Lynn developed Alzheimer’s and left us all behind, it was so hard, so painful for all of us who loved her. We were many, and we loved her so much. She lingered here for years physically, but gone from us in every other way. When she passed away gently in her sleep, in a way it was a sweet relief, and even though we cried for ourselves, we didn’t cry for Lynn. She was free again. Free to explore other adventures and discover new trails, as she had always loved to do. She was always the one out ahead of us, a joyful trailblazer in life. She still is, just on a trail we can’t follow as closely now, but someday will. Vaya con Dios, Amada, hermana de mi corazón.

Along my way I have learned that God/ Spirit/ Universal Consciousness doesn’t like Why-questions. But there are some things that even though I can’t understand, still I have begun to make some sense of, and stop my struggling to figure everything out.

I believe there are some things we simply are not given to know. God knows, and watches out for us, I can see the proof of this in my own life. But God, whatever that is, also allows us to blunder if we choose to, and wander off the path, and stumble, and even sometimes fall hard as we are learning to run, but never lets us stray too far. If we lose our way, or if we hunger for a greater challenge than this life holds, God can always call us home. Then in the morning, we begin again.

29. Not For Women Only

December 14, 2017

An unexpected and historic upsurge – women speaking up and taking action, the ME TOO movement has exploded one of the critical issues of our time into full view, with firm demands for legal consequences. These women won’t shut up and “just take it” anymore. The victimization of “the weaker sex” and the ignoring of it by the Good Old Boys clubs in every profession, starting at the top, are being called to account. These women are kicking butt & taking names, and toppling giants from their thrones like dominoes in a row.

As more women claim their right to power and choice, we discover that women do have power. In the past we fell for the standard lie that women should not have power and choice, and were wrong to want any. Women should always defer to men in important matters. This and all the other lies we were taught in childhood, for boys and girls alike, will continue to hold us hostage unless and until we see the truth, claim it for ourselves, and go for it. That is what’s happening now, at a time when humanity desperately needs a new paradigm.

Wars don’t work. (Look at the history of humankind and get a clue.) We profoundly need a different way of problem-solving, instead of just endlessly problem-bashing with bombs and weapons of destruction. The abuse, rape, and exploitation of the Earth’s environment are the result of this same principle, the bully boss, who feels entitled to take more than his share of everything. This is a leadership style which has reached the end of its usefulness and crossed the line from abuse to destruction. We now know that we MUST go another way, or else commit suicide/murder of our planet, and along with it, put an end to God’s experiment with the creature of free will.

All of this distills down to a few individual and societal choices: between responsibility or careless greed, ethical leadership or abuse of power, divisiveness/isolationism or compassionate partnership/relationship worldwide. This shows up in every area of life, from temp-jobs, to the presidency. What you do, and what you say, matters more than you know.

For women, the greatest breakthrough in history is emerging right now, the discovery of a rigorously concealed truth: we have a choice. We don’t have to be what our parents taught us, we don’t have to believe what they believed. We can and must weigh for ourselves the value of ideas, decide what is true for us, today, now, then choose the best ones and discard the lies. Because in this life, what we believe is what we receive.

When we change what we believe, we will change the world. It is changing now, but there are still millions of people still swallowing the flood of lies coming from the entrenched Powerful Few, and because the lies are so frequent and so loud, the brainwashing has been effective even on otherwise normally intelligent people, subconsciously. They actually consider the most ridiculous lies, simply because, as my own sister put it, “Everybody in town does,” in her tiny Texas town. Unless we think deeper and more awake than that,  we are being unknowingly influenced and controlled, and the cost of not-thinking is becoming more than the earth or humanity can pay.

If you have been bullied or wronged without defense or recourse by the-powers-that-be in your world, woman or man, if you have been physically or psychologically or sexually abused, intimidated, shamed, or taken advantage of, belittled, or taught to believe you were not good enough, whether by a parent or stranger, that was a lie.  

We can tell the truth now. Nobody needs to be afraid or ashamed to stand to say it: Me Too. For so many years, in so many ways, but not anymore, and never again.

The mind that lives in any size, color, or kind of body can have the skills and talents of an NFL running back: maybe not the biggest, but smart, strong, quick, and agile, which is pretty much the quintessential definition of the female mind, with the bonus X-factors of extraordinary perception and intuition. Why not USE those valuable resources to get some respect and integrity back for ourselves and our country?

A huge step has been taken. Follow it. Don’t just buy-into the loudest lies. Don’t quietly allow the powerful to drain your individual strengths away, or nullify them, or forbid your voice to be heard. Trust your own mind. Trust your own heart— it knows what’s right for you. Stepping out of the shadows will be scary at first, but do it anyway. We are all here with you.